Black smokey eyes, black sky and black mind wandering around everywhere except here writing this text. I have thoughts wanting to get out, but can’t find the words. I feel loved, happy and grateful – but also anxious, melancholic and nervous. It’s always like this during this time of the year. It’s like I’m counting the hours and putting them up on the scale for me. Was I enough this year? I’m battling the battle I’m always battling. How to be perfect without being perfect? How to be undone and fine with it?
For real though – life has been everything, but black lately. Life’s been good. I even lied about the sky: on my latest run I saw that the sky had more colors that I can fit on my lids (anyone else getting makeup inspiration from the sky?). It had purple, pink and blue. The moon hit the sea beautifully and it sparkled. The air felt icy cold, but not as cold as it could be. Running in the dark is worth it, to put it simply.
My best friend finally came home from Australia and it’s been so nice having her around. The black mood that seems to be taking grasp of so many people right now can’t reach me. I won’t let it. I’ve been going to sleep early, waking up early, exercised, gotten things done and felt hopeful. Okay, and I’ve eaten chocolate.
I wish you a happy and relaxing weekend! Mine is gonna be quite peaceful, which is nice because I have almost every weekend booked from now on ’till the end of December.
2018-11-24
Iih, kuka sulle on neulonut pupusukat? Ihanat 😀
2018-11-24
Äiti 😀 Näin yhellä bloggaajalla ja heti oli saatava omat. Ihan parhaat <3
2018-12-21
Loving the color combinations of your photos. Black to gray to pink. Lovely. 🙂
2018-12-21
Thanks!