In 2019…

  •  I tried new sports; boxing, kickboxing and twerking. The last one was a flop, obviously.
    [Go on, exceed yourself]
  •  I flew alone and had the best holiday with my three sisters. How lucky am I to have sisters as my best friends?
  • I ran a half marathon (or the distance) with my sisters – singing ‘We are the Champions’ is what got us through the final metres.

  • I Embraced my natural curls, even though it didn’t make me a curl goddess like some of the amazing curl gurus I follow on Instagram. It did however result in me and my blog being mentioned in a Finnish lifestyle magazine! [Naturally curly and wavy hair 101 – Curly hair routine]
  • I was more comfortable in my body than I have ever been – and I talked about that here too and got very positive feedback and encouragement from you (thank you!). [Me too & My body is written with scars]scars on my body stretch marks positivity
  • I had a lovely summer. Then again, aren’t summers always lovely? Full of endless sunlight, adventures and gin & tonics.
  • I moved to a new apartment, that instantly felt like home. I still can’t believe I get to live in a pretty much my dream home.

  • I found new creative outlet and hobby: painting. I want to do that more in 2020 too.
  • I improved a lot with my blog. I hit over 30 000 visitors a month in November! My ambitions with this blog are huge. I want this place to be unique, helpful, fun, interesting and everything that I am. I guess I’m finally feeling a little proud of this project (and saying that out loud is more than fine).

What else? Fall and the end of the year has been quite the roller coaster. I’m consciously trying to learn to really really enjoy the littlest things and appreciate everything I have. Because I have the world. I have the love of my life, I have big family, I have my close friends and I’ve also got to know to some pretty amazing people through my work. I have roof over my head and I’m healthy. I can run and I can write. I have cloudy days where my anxiety and depression want to lift their head up, but I’m strong.

Thank you, universe, or whatever it is keeping my feet on the ground.

I’m ready to dance 2019 away – and going into new adventures in 2020.

And you’ll get through anything

Life does break you.

As unfair as it seems, you just won’t get through it without bruises. You’ll live through situations you never knew you could handle. And normally, you wouldn’t. The only time you’re strong enough to live them is the exact time they happen.

Life only gives you as much as you can carry. And you don’t know how strong you are until you have to be. And you are.

But being strong doesn’t mean no crying. It doesn’t mean you won’t crawl in the darkest corner of your house and stay in a child’s pose for a while.

Life breaks you and for a moment it hurts so bad everything stops. Yet still somehow everything keeps going on as normal. A mother hurrying to a bus, dragging their child behind them. A familiar face sitting in the café, probably having the same pie you always get. The same red van stopping where it usually stops. And the trees holding their line like they usually do. Perhaps a few leaves falling in the wind, the sky grey as ever. The minutes and hours pass you by, the numbers change on your phone.

There’s sadness in knowing all that, but I’m calmly writing it down: Life breaks you.

But you get to live it.

You get to ask the important questions. You get to ask the dumb ones, too. Those are especially important. Even if it was the world’s greatest film in a room full of nerds and they would look at you like crazy when you dared to ask: what movie is that? And of course – it would be Forrest Gump.

You don’t need to know all that and do all this. But you get to.

You get to ask the most important question, which is this: What matters?


The moment when I hug my loved ones and close my eyes to really take in the hug. The moment when I laugh so hard at my sister tears start to fall from my eyes. The moment when I fall asleep holding a hand that loves me. The moment I look at the beautiful lights on our terrace and cars pass by.

The moment matters, where I ask my friend how is she doing and listen her moan about work and crazy customers. The moment matters, where I tell a funny story and everyone laughs. The times, where I’ve had coffee with family. Just sitting by the table and being there.

Life does break you. But you get to live it.

And one morning, you’ll notice that you’re watching deer in the valley, while a thick morning mist surrounds you. You’ll feel the cold air on your skin, but your muscles are doing the work. You are walking, running, falling and stopping. You are here, as are the stars on the sky.

And you’ll get through anything.

Photographed by Mia / Beauty Highlights

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