Once upon a time,
I went to a cafè all by myself.
In my head I saw this independent strong woman drinking oat milk latte by herself and just radiating good energy and productivity. In reality though, I basically asked the waiter if I could order an oat milk latte – instead of just normally ordering it. I literally said: “Could I order this oat milk latte?” after which I immediately mumbled: “I mean, I would take the oat milk latte thanks”. The waiter smiled a little and I just thought to myself: you’re the customer. Just order what you want and pay up, idiot.
And just a few hours before I froze when someone asked me how I was doing. I answered fine and just hit blank. How am I doing? Good, but what else? What’s something interesting that I could tell? Maybe that I’ve started boxing? Maybe talk about the weather? In hindsight, weather would have been the perfect topic. But oh well, you know. Being quiet and awkward is also always an option.
Luckily the latte was delicious. And the cafe was basically empty so it was perfect (no one asking me hard questions like how am I doing etc.). I guess it was one of those days where I couldn’t have smooth conversations and be awesome. It was more like being awkward the whole day – which I guess is just another part of me as well. Not my best feature, but just as real as my ability to look people in the eyes and instantly learn something new about their character.
My coffee moment was nice, even though my stomach hurt and I was on my phone the whole time. Stressing. I couldn’t decide if it was better to post an Instagram photo – or just update my Instagram story. I still don’t know, so you tell me. Though I have a feeling it doesn’t really matter.
Not every day is productive and good and sunshine. Not every day do I feel like a strong independent woman. On this particular day the sun did shine, beautifully might I add, but I was feeling so very average.
I thought it would be only suitable to share this piece of text with photos, that I ended up not being that happy about. My photographer was good, but I looked tired and my modeling skills had taken a hike to Africa on that shoot. I also had stomach pains and I was freezing. Not that it’s important. Still, I liked my outfit. My new scarf that I found from Zadaa (100% wool and in perfect shape!) and a new cute white beanie – also from Zadaa. I love how easy it is to buy second hand nowadays, if it wasn’t for Zadaa, I just straight up wouldn’t buy second hand. Luckily there is Zadaa.
And coffee. And that sunshine. And tomorrow. And the ability to laugh to myself. Not taking everything so seriously (though usually I do).
After I had drank my coffee I awkwardly thanked the waiter, walked away and got a car drive home. May tomorrow be better!
photos – healthyhairfinland